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Thursday, June 25, 2009

Keep me safe til the storm passes by!

043 When we face different oppositions in life and we just don't know where to turn to or what to do, sometimes it best suits to just sit still and wait out the storms. 

Sometimes in life when we face challenges and we make choices good or bad, we must ride that storm out until the calm comes.

Sometimes circumstances in life creates situations and unexpected change of events and therefore we feel a loss or we feel lonely and depressed. 

Do we really face our situations?  Do we make them better or worse? No one can really answer that question.

One thing in life though is no matter what comes at us we are respondsible for our actions and reactions.  And in saying this, I do not care if one is bipolar or not - YOU are respondisblie for your words, your actions and YOUR behavior!

In this photo some smart teenager son of mine decided to "get mom!"  I didn't get upset!  I did get this picture as a joke though.  Was it worth it?  YES!  This is one good memory of us having fun and joking around!


Monday, June 15, 2009

Time to refocus

funeral and others 093 July 4th 014 funeral and others 008 Above in the right hand corner stands my dad, Francis D. McNut, his twin brother Frank is sitting down and their sister Flora Durning.  On the left hand side standfuneral and others 029 my mother Willa McNutt with my son Monte G. Edwards who passed away Aug. 27, 2008.  Below stands my mother Willa McNutt standing near my father on his funeral day.  Below stands his twin brother Frank who passed away 10 months after his brother.  It's sad the way life takes us sometimes.  One never knows what tomorrow may bring.  Live it for the Lord!


Friday, June 12, 2009

The Unknown

I have been married for 7 years and I can promise you that sometimes one doesn't know everything that they should before making a sound judgement call on another person.   

I never knew until after 4 yrs of marriage about my husband's rages.  I knew he 2nd ex wife claimed she was afraid of him and I just could not understand why - but I do now.  I have learned so much in the last 2 months that make me so sick that I just am having issues right now.  To top it off - one day during a rage he threatened to take a knife and cut up everything up in the house.  Oh how I wished he would have stopped there!  Oh how I wished and prayed that I never have heard the rest! 

I now have increased panic attacks and yes, I am afraid of him!  The law enforcement agencies claim they can't do anything until he does bodily harm to me and my son!  I just don't plan on dying yet!  I have slacked in my work and all because of nerves. 

The last 2 days he's been reeving up the anger here and I warned him that I was prepared to leave him on a moment's notice.  He said he was NOT going to loose me or our son, we would not walk out on him!  YES that's scary!
He's on meds for Bipolar but it's not working and he refuses help! 

I NEED every one who reads this to please pray for a good out come.  It just doesn't look like one is on it's way but I know God is able!


Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Struggles

We all have them, we all deal with them.  They can make us or break us.  Sometimes in life one can pick or choose a way of life but then we are still faced with struggles.  One thing about struggles though is you find out who your friends are. One finds out who prays, who stays, who gossips and back stabs.  Struggles bring out the best and worst in people.  How do you deal with struggles?


Saturday, May 23, 2009

Happy Memorial Day

Happy Memorial Day to those who fought for our country and who have gone on to be with their makers. 

Francis D. McNutt (July 2008)

Fred McFarland

Russell Glenn Edwards (Aug. 23, 1987- father/ husband)

Monte Glenn Edwards (Aug.27, 2008 - son of Russell Glenn Edwards)

Ronald Gail Edwards (2004)

Larry Dean Edwards (1983)

Darlene Hope Edwards (2007)

Hazel Burton (1986)

Eli Burton (1995)

David Devore

Todd Heinen

You are all in my heart!



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